Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Who I Am

Do you ever feel like you're two different people? Like one person on your blog and one in "real" life? I feel like I'm in the process of becoming one person. In real life, I'm so extremely shy sometimes that it's for hard for people to get to know me. I can express myself much better in writing than I can with speaking. I'm afraid to talk about certain things with certain people. Sometimes, I'm afraid to try new things because I'm afraid I would be bad at them. I let the opinions of others rule what I say and do. I try to make everyone happy so much so that I let others hurt my feelings and never tell them. I worry continuously that I've said something wrong to someone. I worry that I've hurt someone without knowing it

I don't want those fears to rule my life. I'm the person in my blog. But, if you ever met me in person, I would be introverted unless the person I'm meeting is more introverted than me. I've learned that I have to talk about my feelings, and I have to let others know me because I'm here for a reason (and so is everyone else). If we don't have close relationships than what do we have? I can use my blog to let others who normally wouldn't know me as well, know me for who I really am. This is important to me at this point in my life.

I want to be real with others and want them to be real with me. Life is too short. If I hurt your feelings tell me so that I can fix it. I hope to be the person who can always say I'm sorry and mean it when others need me to do so. I hope to always be forgiving. I hope to be the person God has intended me to be. I hope to never hide myself from my daughter or my husband. I hope to speak up when I need to defend myself or others. I hope you can see my love for you.


Vader's Mom said...

I could copy this word for word on my blog. (Except the daughter part) I'm proud for you and I'm proud of you!!! And I'm so very proud to be friends with you.

Judith said...

From my perspective, you are growing into a young woman with purpose and quite willing to learn as you go along your personal journey. With love for your husband and little girl, you are on the right course for your life in taking everything in stride.