Who I Am

Do you ever feel like you're two different people? Like one person on your blog and one in "real" life? I feel like I'm in the process of becoming one person. In real life, I'm so extremely shy sometimes that it's for hard for people to get to know me. I can express myself much better in writing than I can with speaking. I'm afraid to talk about certain things with certain people. Sometimes, I'm afraid to try new things because I'm afraid I would be bad at them. I let the opinions of others rule what I say and do. I try to make everyone happy so much so that I let others hurt my feelings and never tell them. I worry continuously that I've said something wrong to someone. I worry that I've hurt someone without knowing it

I don't want those fears to rule my life. I'm the person in my blog. But, if you ever met me in person, I would be introverted unless the person I'm meeting is more introverted than me. I've learned that I have to talk about my feelings, and I have to let others know me because I'm here for a reason (and so is everyone else). If we don't have close relationships than what do we have? I can use my blog to let others who normally wouldn't know me as well, know me for who I really am. This is important to me at this point in my life.

I want to be real with others and want them to be real with me. Life is too short. If I hurt your feelings tell me so that I can fix it. I hope to be the person who can always say I'm sorry and mean it when others need me to do so. I hope to always be forgiving. I hope to be the person God has intended me to be. I hope to never hide myself from my daughter or my husband. I hope to speak up when I need to defend myself or others. I hope you can see my love for you.