Thursday, April 10, 2008

Isn't God Amazing?

Yet again another follow-up post. For the whole story read parts 1 and 2.

So, many of you may be wondering how I am doing emotionally. Well...I've pretty much been at peace since the beginning, minus the whole scared for my own life thing. Don't take it the wrong way that I didn't have concern and longing for the baby. God eased my concerns. It's quite an amazing thing. I thought I would feel guilt and tend to on a lot more menial things, but I felt like I handed my baby into the arms of Jesus. Of course, it helped that we only knew I was pregnant for less than 24 hours. Everything was in God's control.

I haven't really been through what I would consider a typical mourning process. I have not broken down. I may yet. But, I do believe that God used His word to prepare me for what Matt and I were about to go through. I do have some sadness over what could have been, but God has given me a quaint joy knowing that when I do reach heaven, I will see the child He had intended to live with Him in heaven. I know God also used those who interceded through prayer for Matt and I during this time.

I am full of awe for God for His mercy and power, and I am able to walk away from this knowing two things:

Prayer changes things.

And God's peace surpasses everything.

12 comments:

annie said...

Awesome Shawna. God is enough and everything.

Stacy at Exceedingly Mundane said...

Wonderful post, Shawna. I'm so glad you are healing inside and out. :)

Irritable Mother said...

This is quite a story.
And, YES, God IS amazing!
Thanks for sharing with us.

Sonya said...

I could not have said it better myself!

jennifer said...

Gosh Honey, you have been through a trial haven't you? I am so sorry for your loss. But I am thankful for God's grace that you were taken to the ER and your health is good.

I don't talk about it much, but I lost my first baby in a miscarriage. There are odd little details and I was very backward and young. Being a Christian, I know that I will meet this soul in heaven and that God's will was done. I don't grieve exactly, but I do often wonder "What if?"

Hope that you continue doing well.

Jennifer

jennifer said...

Oh, and a backward and young means around 23. Took me a long time to grow up. I'm probably still not all that mature!

Jen Again

hyperactivelu said...

Such great words. I don't know how I would handle that situation. I've always been told that its difficult. I can't imagine and SO thankful that you rest in HIM! God is good and so amazing!

kailani said...

I'm so glad that you're healing. What a strong woman you are!

I've had several miscarriages, one was at 5 months. It was my belief that everything happens for a reason and it was truly God's plan that got me through it.

My prayers are with you and your family.

Coach J said...

Wow, Shawna. I didn't even think this might be the surgery you were recovering from. What a BIG thing you've walked, and are still walking, through. I know God is holding your hand. God bless you, girl.

gail@more than a song said...

I'm glad you seem to be doing ok and that you feel God's hand in all of it. I didn't have quite the same experience but did lose a baby in the middle of my 4 and at times I thought it had about done me in.

Chappyswife said...

I am so thankful that you are healing fine and handling this so well. God is amazing, and I am glad He is taking care of you.

Heart of Rachel said...

God has a reason for everything. I'm glad that you have accepted what has happened. I admire your strong faith. Take care.