Thursday, April 10, 2008

Isn't God Amazing?

Yet again another follow-up post. For the whole story read parts 1 and 2.

So, many of you may be wondering how I am doing emotionally. Well...I've pretty much been at peace since the beginning, minus the whole scared for my own life thing. Don't take it the wrong way that I didn't have concern and longing for the baby. God eased my concerns. It's quite an amazing thing. I thought I would feel guilt and tend to on a lot more menial things, but I felt like I handed my baby into the arms of Jesus. Of course, it helped that we only knew I was pregnant for less than 24 hours. Everything was in God's control.

I haven't really been through what I would consider a typical mourning process. I have not broken down. I may yet. But, I do believe that God used His word to prepare me for what Matt and I were about to go through. I do have some sadness over what could have been, but God has given me a quaint joy knowing that when I do reach heaven, I will see the child He had intended to live with Him in heaven. I know God also used those who interceded through prayer for Matt and I during this time.

I am full of awe for God for His mercy and power, and I am able to walk away from this knowing two things:

Prayer changes things.

And God's peace surpasses everything.


annie said...

Awesome Shawna. God is enough and everything.

Stacy at Exceedingly Mundane said...

Wonderful post, Shawna. I'm so glad you are healing inside and out. :)

Irritable Mother said...

This is quite a story.
And, YES, God IS amazing!
Thanks for sharing with us.

Sonya said...

I could not have said it better myself!

jennifer said...

Gosh Honey, you have been through a trial haven't you? I am so sorry for your loss. But I am thankful for God's grace that you were taken to the ER and your health is good.

I don't talk about it much, but I lost my first baby in a miscarriage. There are odd little details and I was very backward and young. Being a Christian, I know that I will meet this soul in heaven and that God's will was done. I don't grieve exactly, but I do often wonder "What if?"

Hope that you continue doing well.


jennifer said...

Oh, and a backward and young means around 23. Took me a long time to grow up. I'm probably still not all that mature!

Jen Again

Anonymous said...

Such great words. I don't know how I would handle that situation. I've always been told that its difficult. I can't imagine and SO thankful that you rest in HIM! God is good and so amazing!

kailani said...

I'm so glad that you're healing. What a strong woman you are!

I've had several miscarriages, one was at 5 months. It was my belief that everything happens for a reason and it was truly God's plan that got me through it.

My prayers are with you and your family.

Coach J said...

Wow, Shawna. I didn't even think this might be the surgery you were recovering from. What a BIG thing you've walked, and are still walking, through. I know God is holding your hand. God bless you, girl.

gail@more than a song said...

I'm glad you seem to be doing ok and that you feel God's hand in all of it. I didn't have quite the same experience but did lose a baby in the middle of my 4 and at times I thought it had about done me in.

Chappyswife said...

I am so thankful that you are healing fine and handling this so well. God is amazing, and I am glad He is taking care of you.

Heart of Rachel said...

God has a reason for everything. I'm glad that you have accepted what has happened. I admire your strong faith. Take care.